My Crazy World

Time Will Heal The Pain

2007-09-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

Some travel through it peacefully...

Some face it a little too suddenly...

Others endure agonising long hours
Days..
Weeks..
Years....

Before it creeps softly upon them and eases them off their pain.

We cannot control it
Nor can we reschdule it

Some are afraid of it
Others embrace it

Death

Its amazing how this small, short five-letter word can cause us so many emotions all at ones.
Its astonishing how this word rhymes with breath, but ironically robs you of it.

Sometimes the very thought of it makes us shudder and not want to think of it.
Othertimes, curiosity overwhelms us, and we do all within our means to find out more about it.

Once we have experienced death, we leave the world that we cried when we first entered it.
What hurts the most, is that the story does not end here.

No, in fact it marks the begining of a long and tyring journey for the ones we have left behind.
A journey that involves extreme pain, hopelessness, longing, crying, numbness, and lastly the fight to learn acceptance.

Acceptance

Its difficult
Its draining
But its also, the only route towards healing.

Memories...
Its difficult to forget.
But without forgetting it, it makes accepting the lost of a loved one,
more painful and heart wrenching.

But we dont have to forget it.
No, instead we embrace it
And find warmth and consolence within it.

Its hard to look at the cold heart truth that he or she is gone,
But try to understand that,
Where he has gone, is a place that he need not suffer any longer.

The one you love is happy, is at ease...
We do not have to cry over that
Instead, we should be thankful that he is at peace now.

They haven't left you. They never will.
They are within you, and always will be.
Look within yourself and find consolence in the memories you shared with them, especially when your longing for their comforting hand on your shoulder is too much to bear.

This is dedicated to my most cherised of friends, Valerie and Farhanah.
And to My Dearest Mother. I miss grandpa too mum..

We'll pull through together huns
I promise...

Time will heal the pain...

That's just how it is...

2007-06-09T11:20:00.000+08:00

Wild Roses...

Roses have always been associated with love
It has never been clear why..
But never questioned either.

Perhaps its because the answer is only too obvious
Its soft tender petals..
Irts rich redness that never fails to remind you of blood..

So why such beauty has thorns that prick you, as you hold it?

But, perhaps, it is this feature of the rose that makes it the most suitable to be associated with love

Love pricks you.
As the seed develops, and stem sprouts out, thorns appear.
They increase in number as the flower grows.

Just like love..

As love blossoms, pain does as well
Confusement, anxiety, paranoia
These are all thorns that prick at your heart
That make you feel pain

During this period, many give up
Arguments,Break-ups, Divorce

But some..
Some hold on
Thight-
Real thight

Then the petals develop,
the bud blossoms
And then one day..

A beauty so remarkable results.
A full-grown rose..
At first sight
its overwhelming beauty stuns you..

Those who hold on to love faithfully
Get rewarded with happiness, stability, loyalty
and most importantly a cocoon of warmth and safety.

No..
I'm not in love
At least not in love with the sort of love that you suspect at the moment

Believe it or not
Love is everywhere

Sometimes it destroys
other times , its that thin silk of thread that protects and prevents a relatioship from breaking.

Look at your parents, look at their faces,
Study their eyes
And ask yourself

Do you see pain?
Do you see hardship?

Imagine that love, warmth and happiness of those eyes when you were born
Imagine their amazement and wonder as they first laid eyes on you

They have done everYthinG
All they can think of you
To make you what you are today.

YeS

Its is because of their pain, their courage and determination
that is the cause of you siting here right now
in a home where you feel safe
And reading this

Next time you want to argue with them about yours rights
Think about this
And ask yourself
Is it Really Worth It?

I feel FREEE

2007-06-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

I've totally decided to make the most of this holidays. I cant confidently say that it is extremely well-deserved, but I cant help but allow myself to feel free and simply enjoy the loooong hours of freedom. For now, revision, homework and stress would just have to take a backseat.

This week had been awseome. Surprisingly I found the tutorials quite enjoyable. Please do not mistaken me as a nerd with no life, but without the tension of an upcoming exams(excluding the "o" Levels of course, that fear and tension will always be there) but despite that, the tutorials were quite alright : ))))

But I have to admit I and i'm sure many of my friends are gonna miss Mr Suhaimi. He was a really good teacher and humorous, and for some reason could always bear with my huge problem of being extremely TalKatiVe. Hehess, oh yeah, and my AmaAzing hand Writing.
But whatever it is, I wish him all the best for all his future engagements and may all future handwrittings he may come across in the future be more pleasent than mine. : )

Alright people, talk about ChemIstry OverLoad!! I really like Chemistry but next week is going to be a teeny bit more chemistry than Im used to. But at least we will not be crammed with Chemistry Info whan school re-opens and when we are a bit too close to O levels than I would quite like, so I guess It's better now than later. : )

I'm going to meet Yoges later. My sis, Yoges and I are going to watch this Indian Cultural Show. I guess its gonna be quite fun. Who knows, it might just help me with my TamiL, hehes

Val was totally adorable yesterday, lols, when we were WALKING to Loyang point from school. Lols, she can really be funny when she wishes too. : DDDD

Tomorrow, Yoges, Regina, Val, Sonika, Vadhana and I, anre gonna either watch, POC, Shrek3 or Zodiac. Im totally disappointed with the reviews Ive heard/read so far concerninf POC. Apparently its too boring to imagine. But this is totally expected since they killed of Orlando Bloom. HOW COULD THEY!!!!

Oh well...you know..HOLLYWOOD

Talk about TiPicAL

2007-05-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

I simply CaNNOt believe it. Someone PINCH me!!
Its OFFICIALLLY the last day of the EXAMSSS
Oh my gosh....
I see light.......
Sniff sniff...( excuse me..just give me a moment to pull myself together)
I'm presently overwhelmed with dramatic emotions.

Clears Throat

Ok all better now.
YaYYYY
I FEEL FREEEEEEEEEEEEE
Every thing seems so Much more brighter
The sky much bluer..( Who am I kidding the weather's horrible. Talk About HOT!)

The bird's voice more sweeter(What am I talking about, all I hear are thos sstupid crows yelling their lungs out as though someone died or something)
T
he grass so much more lustrious and green(No actually Its kinda parched..)

Hmmmm
Ok... This is weird, how come I dont feel as light, freee and HAPPY as i expected to be...

AAARGGHHH
Talk about typIcaL

First I feel guilty for putting off my studies, then I panic as the exams get closer, the I rush like CraZZY to finish my revision, then I recieve a heart attack before every paper, then go through emotional trauma during the paper, feel a teeny bit lighter after the paper, then a sinking feeling at the thought of the next paper, then overwhelming happiness after the entire examinations, then panic attacks before getting the results. Talk about MAJOR emotional Roller coaster ride! Can you BLAME us teengaers for having moodswings?

Oh well..Thats LIFE
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Oh yeah, J.Yoges, my friend from primary school is acting!
She's amazing, I never knew she had it in her.
You ROCK HUN!!

At least we have One whole month before school reopens again.

LOLSSSS
Yeah RIGHT
We still have thouse fun, enlightening tutorials that would destr...I mean make the holidays all the more enjoyable.

Hehess

Actually, Im sort of looking forward to the tutorials. Staying at home will be a major bore, at least I can tease, annoy, and IRRITATE but Fab, amazing, Fantastic friends in schoool!!! Hehehess

Kidding you guys...

NOT!

im totally tired

2007-04-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

Well, despite the tons of homework and tests, I have still found a reason to keep my spirits up. The BOOK is comimg out!!! I cant WAIT.

Well, Dad, left last Saturday To Dubai. My mother really misses him, and so does my sister. I do too, but I must admit, not as much as my sister. My sister really really misses him. She's online practically half the day chatting with him. My mother is on the phone with him before she goes to work, during lunch break and when she comes home.

Me? I told him to " Take care!!" on the phone three days ago.

Please dont get me wrong. Im not an ungrateful daughter who dislikes my father or anything. But its just that i have always been more closer with mum. Perhaps this separation would make me appreciate my father more and perhaps create a greater bond between us. You know what they say, " Absence makes the heart grow fonder."

Viv came over last night with Aunty Lina(Viv's mum) and both my mum and her spent literally three hours talking about Dad being outstation.

After listhning to mum saying" I really hope he does not catch a cold and eats well" about a thousand times and Aunty Lina saying, " Don't worry Nisha, I'm sure he'll be fine. Just make sure you dont get sick worrying too much." about another thousand times, Viv and I retreated to my room and watched my sister practice her speech.

Then we toasted some peanut butter and strawberry sandwiches and ended up tickling one another. (I almost made Viv choke) Lolssss

Anyway, tomorrow Sonika and I going to Mr. Gabriels restaurant. If val and fen dont turn up, its gonna be kinda embarrassing...oh well

oh oh oh

2007-03-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

Oh oh

I have a problem(in singsong voice)
A very V-e-r-Y big problem

What will you do if ou realise your dearest friend is not confiding in you as much as she used to, or seems too caught up with the worries of growing up that she has forgotten to be a child anymore?

What if you're worried about something she just became caught up in, and as much as you know she is strong enought and intelligent enough not to fall into unknown, ure worried she just might?

Or what if you suspect something else is brewing in her life, that she does not realise, but you do?

Well, I for one honestly haven't a clue.
But the last thing I want is to become too dramatic and exaggerate the issue

So what to do?
hmmmmm

Well i'm still thinking, and thinking and thinking...
Not that im any close to finding the perfect solution or anything.

Over reacting and imagining too much will get me into huge trouble(as the begining of this year had shown) Ilma, Sonika and Yoges know very well what I'm talking about.
Lols, honestly I was really really silly then.

So I have to tackle this another way, but exactly what is the way??

Where's Hermoine when you need her???

P.S: Thanks again Sonika for being such an angel and exploring the entire school with me today!LOLS

already half-way through the hols

2007-03-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh it is already Wednesday. How did four days of holiday pass so quickly?
I'm not exactly complaing, but I've always been taken aback at how fast time passes.
When we look forward to a certain occasion, we get really excited and cant wait for time to pass. But once that special occasion is over and you get back to normal every-day duties you get shocked at how much time has flown by, and at such an alarming rate as well. Have you ever felt that way?

I have, and quite a number of times as well. What really bothers me is that the rate at which time is passing is increasing. Does this mean the earth is spinning faster? Or is it just because there are increasing number of tasks to be completed each day before the sun sets, as we grow older?

Im presently reading a book called The Sealed Nectar.
Beautiful name isn't it?
Its the complete, or as complete as possible, of the life of Prophet Muhammad(s.a.w).

I've always wanted to read his biography, but I still have not reached that part yet.
The begining of the book is all about the various Arab tribes of the past. How they came about and what were the factors that cause them to cease to exsist.

It was first witten in Urdu, if I'm notmistaken, and then translated into English.
Definitely a very compelling book...

Now what were we talking about before the book came up?
Oh yes..Time.

Don't you think it is a pity that as fast as time passes by, we don't seem to be able finish our work at equal rate?

Speaking of time passing, the Arena was on yesterday. Quite saddening really..
I did not expet it end so soon.
Definitely an exhilarating experience, nothing short of a rollercoaster ride, something I wouldnt trade for the world. :)
Pity it was so short...

Or maybe, time just passed so quickly that it appeard that way..

!!!!!!!an amazing woman!!!!!!!!

2007-03-03T14:18:00.000+08:00

We are presently living in a world where tensions between the different races and religions are rather high. I am very fortunate, that as a Singaporean, I am not exposed or am part of or experiencing such tensions. But I'm fully aware that this is not the case, especially in the west and the east.

As deppressing and as horrible as this may be, there is still hope that these tensions will cease to exsist, mainly because of a few people out there who are willing to sacrifice all, in order to educate the world.

Queen Rania Al-Abdullah of Jordon is an amazing woman, that I am ashamed to say, have only, just recently heard about. An article about her Majesty was featured in this month's ELLE magazine. She is honestly everything I've always wanted to be.

Though only 36 years old, she has achieved alot. For the past thirtheen years, she has been fighting for the rights of women and children.

Especially in the east, women have been taught to be conservative and shy. But that does not at all mean that women are powerless, or that they are to follow men, heads bowed, without standing-up for themselves.

In Fact Queen Rania herself, said,(something that truly made stand up and give all the due respect she deserves)

" I prefer to judge women on their ETHICS, on their VALUES, on what they THINK, on what they DO, rather than on what they wear."

SHE TOTALLY ROCKS!!

You GO Girl!!!!

Farhahnah's AWSEOME party!!

2007-02-20T15:27:00.000+08:00

Farhanah held an awseome Birthday party last Sunday. The food was downright to die for and the guest of honour (Farhanah) looked fanatasticaly funky!: ))

Ilma and I went to the washroom before going to the party. Our poor ears had to bear with some horrible singers who had this illusion that they were Clay Aiken or something. Honestly, Ilma and I could have choked from all that laughing. When we finally reached the party venue, most of the guests were there already. We had fun laughing and talking.

Shahirah CAME! Omg, its been so long since I last met her last year. She looked terrific!!!
Then we pigged out. There was practically a buffet spread out for us.

When Ms Farhanah came, we cut the cake and Ilma and I left.

Unfortunately we missed the water balloon and flour fight. LOls. What am I talking abt, more like THANKFULLY we missed the fight LOLS. JOKING Farhanah!

Wings and Nails just do NOT go together Dream maker!

2007-02-17T17:28:00.000+08:00

I had a really freakingly WEIRD dream last night, which involved me having wings that were made of nails, so OBVIOUSLy it was way too heavy for me to actually use the wings to fly. So naturally I fell, and fell and FELL. Then all of a sudden I found that those useless wings were transformed into somesort of spidery legs and I was LITERALLY eating a fly. Like EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Then I dont quite remember what happened, but I think I had another dream in which I was in this HUGE ship with my mother and we were simply gazing out at the sea. I remeber crying, everything looked beautiful, calm and just peaceful. I dont remember ever feeling so safe before..

I hope I have that dream again. Not the first one, the second. The first honestly needs some tweaking. I mean, WHATS the point of wings made of nails, and eating spiders?? Way too gross.

I woke up and Freaked because my bedroom clock showed that its was 8.am and that was WAY after school had started. But then I remebered that today was Saturday. Honestly, you have no idea how relived I felt. PHEW Im gonna die of a heart attack if that happens to often, I assure you. ( Yan Fen, when I thought I was gonna be late to school, for some reason your face with an angry expression kept popping into my head) I dont think I need to explain why, hehes.

Viv came over, and I helped with her project. I still cant get the super glue out of my hands VIV!!!! But she did treat me out for Mcdonalds so I wont complain, : ))

We met mum half-way home, so she drove Viv back and then drove me home.
Then my mother begin to talk to me about the safety of Blogging. She said that she trusted me to be mature in ensuring that no harm comes to me because of my blog. There have been so many articles in which many teenagers have come to harm because of strangers who had taken a rather unhealthy obsession of reading their blogs. I think most of you guys know how big a chatter box I am, so I better watch out.

I sort of fell off my bicycle yesterday... DRAts another scratch...
Never mind, I LOVE riding the bcycle, Its even more fun when someone rides along with me, HINT HINT hehehes

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

2007-02-16T12:42:00.000+08:00

John and His mother at Faz's house for Hari Raya last year.
Vivien and my dad and this wax model holding an aligator
Farzananah and me.(Faz you look great in red)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was really fun, Mr Nasir is honestly a great teacher, one can never be stressed around him. hehes

Mother Tongue was fine, the workload was alot lighter than usual..

Yay! Farhanah's Birthday is this sun, I cant wait!

Im going to make my IC this afternoon, I hope my picture turns out fine :)))

The Guzheng girl looked really tired today, I hope everything will be fine before SYF....

Oh well, have a great weekend GUYS !!!

The War Times-the world's leading newspaper

2007-02-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

ITS OVER
hehes : )))

Honestly, if all the countries ever involved in war had followed Val's and my example, the world would be really peaceful.

Of course, Ms. Tok's Valentine's Day card idea has to be thanked.

I figured, that I really need to practice on my blasting skills and blast at the right times. But then again, talking things out always works. I have to thank Viv for giving me this advice, thanks hun. You were right, it works.

So, listhen up,

Are you involved in a major fight?
Are you totally stressed and just dont no what to do??
Don't fear, we have the perfect solution for you!

A paper, a pen, a will to pour out your feelings and an aim to patch up friendship is all you need!

For more information, please visit secretsnmysteries.blogspot.com
or call: 9851125484(If line is busy, please try again)

Phsycologist: I dont think its a very good idea that someone as mentally unstable as you should be giving advice

Me: You are the one who is mentally unstable to even want to help mental people like me.

Nights!

Woa, she sure has a major sense of humor, never knew that!

2007-02-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Lols, DEFEND her?? I was defending VIV. Honestly why on EARTH would I defend her. I simply told Viv not to bother her so that Viv wont get caught up in this, I dont want my friends to get hurt because of this!

Defend her??
DEFEND her??

Ok no comment, except I must say if anyone did try and defend her, they would surely loose, not enough info to back up with you see.

And what does she mean that im hinting that Sonika is on my side? Like hello. which world are you in HALF the time? Cuz im sure not in the same one. Im not dumb enough to make/ ask sonika to side me. Cuz she DOESNT need to side anyone. LIke HELLO, this is between you and me, dont bring her in.

I apologise(whether you accept or not, I honestly dont care) for what my friends said and I agree that my friends should not have mde such comments about you cuz they do not know you.

But as for me, I dont regret what I did. I did not just suddenly decide to blow. Obviously SOMETHING must have made me do that other that a pathetic push.

Your comments that have filled half this year about me are rude whether you realise it or not.
And as for your inspiring remarks about me in your blog, its no big deal, really cuz you have done that for practically every person in class, so really, its like a everyday habit of yours, so we're kinda used to it, if you catch my drift.

Either way, abt me being sacarstic, no one disagreed, so what exactly is your point? Sorry dont get it.

So bye girl, freedom's awaiting me.

Oh yeah, today's debate was cool, Hwa Chong was fantastic, kcp's first speaker was good as well.

world war TWO?

2007-02-13T15:48:00.000+08:00

If being invloved in a war means that your oppnent would totally leave you alone, ignore and simply have nothing to do with you, then im all for it!

These few days were bliss, honestly, I used to hate fighting with people, but for once I actually feel I made the right move.

No more stupid comments on how bad I am or remarks on my clothes or anything! Honestly this is WAY awseome.

Now I really understand what the other girls in class mean. I used to defend her but now I find that I was nothing short of foolish for doing so!

Or yeah, I can practically predict the words that will fly out of her mouth at me,. Hypocrite, superficial, oooooo, hurtful( rolls eyes)

Ladies and gentleman, its OFFICIAL, no MORE stress!!!

School was fine. We had our A Maths Test. I think I did alright, we will just have to wait and see.
Todays, Total Defence videos and skit were quite good, the dancers were really good, and the video was nothing short of gruesome. Boy, am I glad I wasn't born then. I mean WHO would fancy their head being stuck on a pole? YUCk and really REALLY sad..

Oh Yeah, OUR DARLING Farhanah's birthday is this SUNDAY!!!

Can't wait!! But honestly, I have NO idea what to get her***HINT HINT Farhanah: GIVE ME A CLUE!!! hehes

And Ilma, IM REALLY REALLY sorry I could not go cycling with you, I was honestly REALLY looking forward to it! sigh...

ViV! omg of COURSE I'll help you with your project!!!! like DUH hun!!!!!!!!
And FarZanah, ive been trying to contact you, but simply cant reach you!!!! What's up hun??

And dear Shu Mei, of COURSE you will do fantasticaly for the test, YOU ARE like an A MATHS EXPERT!!!!

Oh yeah, you guys have GOT to listhen to Sonika's cow-girl accent, its hilarious. SHe's really good at it. All she has to do, is tie two, wear an apron and blue contacts and we have an amazing cow girl with an amaring voice. Honestly, her voice is really good, she probably sings to to cruise at night or something! LOLSS

Its alright, it ok....

2007-02-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

WE MADE IT!!

You have no idea how much I WISH I could tell you guys this.
I really really wanted to, we all did...

We gave it our all you guys, we really really did.

I feel HorrIble. All of you supported us so much!!!
As in, we never felt we were alone, not even once.
You guys were that wonderful...

I cant believe We didnt make it...
Sigh..

But I wont deny, It will be dumb of me to.
Hwa Cheong was brilliant. That I HAVE to hand it to them.
I honestly, with all my heart wish them ALL the BEST for the Finals.
Make us proud you guys, if anyone deserves to win, its you guys : ))))

But, I'm gonna miss it all. The practices, the jokes, the laughter, the hugs, the bond, everything.
Its just so sad it had to end so fast.

But we are top four, that's gotta be something right?

I'm not sure, but I really REALLY wanted to bring up Loyang's name. I know we all wanted to...

its coming!!!!!!!!!! its coming!!!!!!!!!!SCREAMS

2007-02-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSH YOU GUYS< HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS IS GOING TO BE OUT THIS JULY 21st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

OMG!!! THE final installment!!!!!
We are finally gonna find out how it will end....GULP...

Practically everyone I have spoken to had this horrible idea that HARRY will die in the last book...

I honestly, completely and totally do not want that to happen...

It already was a MAJOR blow when Professor Albus Dumbledore died in the sixth book, but harry dying in the last book? Nononono, I so WONT be able to take that.

Others suggest that perhaps Joanne ending the book with practically evryone else dying and Harry sinking into depression.

Sigh, honestly, the world is filled with such opTimiStic people... '-_-

Im sort of hoping for a happy ending but I have an extremely bad feeling that the ending is gonna be anything but a " And they all lived happily ever after" sort of ending..

NOT GOOD!!

Well, this was the read article that contained the WONDERFUL news that the NEXT AND LAST book was going to come out.
Enjoy!!!

LONDON - "

Rowling announced the publication date on her Web site.
Bloomsbury, her British publisher, said it would publish a children's hardback edition, an adult hardback, a special gift edition and an audio book on the same day.
Scholastic Children's Books, the U.S. publisher, said it would offer a hardback edition at a suggested retail price of $34.99, a deluxe edition at $65.00 and a reinforced library edition at $39.99.
Bloomsbury noted that this year is the 10th anniversary of the publication of the first "Harry Potter" book in the phenomenally successful series.
The "Potter" books have sold 325 million copies worldwide and been translated into 64 languages, Bloomsbury said.
The last book, "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince," sold 2,009,574 copies in Britain on the first day of its release, Bloomsbury said.
The Potter franchise is so important to the company's earnings that it announced the publication to the London Stock Exchange.
Bloomsbury shares were up 2.2 percent to $4.40 after the announcement.
___
On the Net: http://www.jkrowling.com

my DARLING friends, love em' cany hate them no matter how hard i try : )))

2007-01-29T16:24:00.000+08:00

HEY!!!

Ok im in my school computer lab now. We are in the process of our debate research and have decided to take a short break, so I thought I'd use this five mins to update my blog.

Our Dear ANNOYING Sonika is right beside me singing a WONDERFULL song. I thank her a zillion for ' BELIEVEING" in all that Ive said, becuase she is that SMART.

OUR darling Yan FEN, is no different. HOnestly Fen, you are the BEST!!

Poor VAl is in the p[rocess of finishing up her chem test. She is the only one who is sane enough to truly understand what the other Geniuses dont. You go Hun!

Ok now to serious business...

WE ARE AGAINST HWA CHONG!!!!

The motion is: A pressing issue. Bloggers are becoming more influential than journalists.

You guys, I totally value all your comments so please PLEASE help us, and contribute anything you want to ok?!!!

Ilma TAKE CARE HUN!!!!! AND Darl if u need anyone to talk to, THe phsyco is all here to entertain you : DDDDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

I love you mum, more that you can ever imagine!!!! Thank you soooooo much for all that u have sacrificed and bringing us up and nurturing us to what we have become today!!!!!!

Ur support esp in this stressful period is much APPRECIATED!!!!!!

Thank u sooo much for ur encouragment, guidance and push throughout every second of our lives!!

Ure TRULY God sent mummmy!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you like the present lols, (I can almost see Valerie laughing at this)

Take Care mummmy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
KISSSSSSSSEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Love u guys!!!

2007-01-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

SCREAMSS

We beat RI, YAY!!!

Five more days before next competition...BOOO!!!

Tutorials, homework, tution, CCAS, friends and Family, gotta juggle them all together with THE Arena.

Actually, its not so bad, Im not stressed..yet.

Either way I havent blogged for a very long time and dont know when I will blog next but I better say this before I havent any time.

YAN FEN You go hun, we are gonna stand by you and ENSURE you come out the heroine. WE believe u hun, so thrust us when we say you ROCK

Valerie Im so sorry there are ridiculous rumors going around, but we are here for u, u know that right?

Sonika, I hope ur car Is fine, thanks a zillion for ur back-up, lets beat XIN MIN together girl : )))

ILMA, im so GLAD we could talk today, love you hun!!!

Farhannah, Im so SORRY abt ur lips, but at least now u have the most lustrious lips on the block!

Husayn, I heard abt ur film making heart ache, wish u ALL THE LUCK and thanks for ur support!

Anselmore thansk alot for that ENTIRE packet of mentos hehes!

Kauser THank u SOOO much for ur support!!

Vivien, Ure the best what else can I say : ))!!!

John, thanks alot fpr ur help on my speech : ))!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Farzannah U rock HUN :)))!!!!!!!!!!

Big Mummy, thank you soooo much for ur encouragement, what will I ever do without U ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mummy u SAVED ME, lols I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dad, URE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAYYYY I cant wait for the next competition, wish us luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are CraZy Enough To beat Em'

2006-12-21T13:53:00.000+08:00

I agree with Fen with her view on my last post but its gonna be really hard to do Fen.

People..I have somethig to say: WE ARE AGAINST RAFFLES INSTITUTION for the ArenA..

YIPPPEEEEEEEEEEE
YAHOOOOOOOOO
WEEEEEEEEEEEE
God I LOVE YOUU

And Viv, Farzannah SORRY for completely being out of contact but pLEASE stop with that Ridiculous rumors. Huns you know it isnt true, If it was I would tell you, but Im simply not that kinda girl. I thrust As my CLOSEST BESTEST friends in the whole entire world to know me and the thing is I know you guys know me So I believe You will thrust me.: ))))))))))

Ilma Believes me

But ViV thanks a GAZILLION for that awseome card and earrings. Its because of youand my sis and mum, that i truly believe we will win over those obnoxious RAffles Guys.

Ilma!! Hun omg girl, i feel like im not there for you when you need me the most. I wish you all the luck Doll, but I wish we cld find the time to just TalK...
PleAse

My dearest Debators, we will do it, WE Will.
FEn---> Believe in me wont you? : )
Val--> Thanks alot for ur encouragment:)
Sonika---> LOve ur positive attitude : )

Will you be CraZ...Brave enough to do it?

2006-12-05T11:58:00.000+08:00

I want to ask you guys something.
I'm going to be very open about it.
If you find offence in what I am to ask, I offer you my most SinCere appologies.

I am not here to offend, but am simply curious.

Say there is a war..
Between two groups of people..

One group of people you support with ALL you Heart..

The other, your group of people are completely against..
COMPLETELY

YouR side starts to win the war..

The other side, loosing..

On the other side,YOUR side is killing them for believing in something against Your Side's believe..

Would you stand up, and have the courage to rescue all whom you can on the side opposite of yours, despite the fact that they believe in everything against your believe?

Or do you think your side has the RIGHT to take their life away because you believe with all you heart that what you believe in is the right thing?

This is no propoganda, I am not trying to influence your thoughts but this is what I hOPE i will do if there comes such a time, when i have to choose.

I do not think I or the people around me, my " side or not" have the RIGHT to take aNY life away.
No matter what the reason.

I think that if God sees one unfit of his love or care, than it is in His hands to decide how to punish the person, not ours.

I will save whom ever I can even if it means being killed by people I ,love and thrust.

Im certain many of you will choose this as well, for my friends, you have shown me that you care about the people around you many times.

However, as they say,things are easier said than done.
Think about it, will you really, honestly, truly have the courage to stand up and help your "enemies."
Would you WANT to help in the first place?

My tag box is for you to leave your comments, and I really hope that there will not come a time when any one of us have to stand up against our loved ones and do what is in my opinion the right thing.

To save one's enemies..

My cRaZY TrIP

2006-12-04T11:29:00.001+08:00

Hiiieeeeeeee again!

Omg, its been so long since I blogged, kind of missed the feel.

I went to Indonesia with my family just this week, and honestly I had a great time : ) So many things happened, I really haven't a clue how I can note them all down, but I'll try, so bear with me ok?

We had to take a ferry to Indonesia from the Singapore Ferry Terminal.
After immigration we boarded the ferry. The ferry consisted of the upper deck and the lower deck.
The upper deck was for smokers, the lower deck non-smokers.

So we settled down in the lower deck and waited for the ferry to start moving.

The lower deck was air-conditioned. In less than half-an-hour, my sis and I simply could not stand the cold longer and begged our dad to bring us to the upper deck for just a little while.
He agreed, so up we went.

The upper deck was Huge!
And there was hardly anyone smoking, only people enjoying the breeze. Did I say breeze? More like a typhOOn,it was so WINDY, i LOVED Itt.

Omg, only after that do I truly understand the phrase " Wind in my hair"
It was a fantstic experience. We were able to see Singapore ( which was quite far away though) but the CBD area was most prominent. We saw the BACK of the merlion, HEHes and five dragon boats. Honestly they loked quite scary in the distance.

The ferry ride was only 50 mins but it honestly didnt feel like it. If I had not had a watch, I could have sworn it had been much longer. This is what I dont get, time is suppose to pass quickly when one is having fun, my sis and I had agreat time, but time didnt seem to be in much of hurry.

We finally alighted(luggage and all) and after imigration looked around the terrminal for the car that was suppose to bring us to the hotL( dont ever hire a cab in Indonesia, Its very dangerous esp for tourists) so my dad hired the hotel car, but the person who is suppose to drive us bak was NOwhEre to be seen.

TYPICAl.

Or that's what i thought..

There was a man holding a sign with the name (hamIn), my Dad's name is Hameem.
After walking round and round, we suspected that that was probably the driver, we were right, he pronounced my dad's name alright but it was the spelling that was out of this world. That's what I noticed, the diffrence between Malay words and Indonesian words, The prononciation is quite alike, its the spelling that's world's apart.

We finally reached Harris Resort.
Two words to describe the resort?
FunKy and FuN

As in honestly!

The receptionist were wearing Hawaii Shirts and A huGe smile on their faces. They joked with us, and I even saw them playing with children. The resort deco was the best part.
Everything was so artistic, in a funky sort of way. There were four walls specially for graffiti, a huge corner specially for children with wacky furniture and they had games for tourists to get to know one another evrey night. Its was AwseOme!!!

My most favourite part was the smimming pool!
Honestly I would not exactly call it a pool, more like a little island on its own!
THere was a special area to play water soccer with goals and everything, another area where water shot out such that ur back( or anywhere else for that matter) got massaged(like a gigantic jacuzzi or something), another are with slides and a diving board. THe best part was that everything was connected and the water for most areas wasn't too deep nor too shallow!. There was also this bridge across that you walk on and take pictures. The swimiing pool connected to the sea so there was this part where the water was salty. I lOVED IT!!!

The next day we decided to go on a guided tour of the island.
The first area we visited was the sea sport area where my dad tried out this awseome sport, sky-diving, it was so COOl!! (my mum said it was too dangerous for me and she didnt want me flying off to Neptune....)right....

Anyway my dad tried it out and it looked like so much FUN!!!
when he came down, he looked nothing short of wind-swept! : )

The next destination, go-cart track!
I could try it!
Hehes
My dad and I and a few other tourists tried it, I obviously have never driven before, but that was one of the best things I have ever tried out! I did not even hit the hedges at the side!!

Ok... May be once? Ok twice, Yups twice that was it! : )))

The next stop, seafood palace..
One word..EEEEWWWWWWWW
You guys know how much I hate seafood right?
omg, there was crab, Fish, lobster and SNAILLL

Well, I thought it was snail at first... turned out to be cockrels...

Anyway the point is that, I lost my appetitte and ended up eating fried spinach, tofu soup and rice.

Being a vegetarian had never felt so good, esp with a fish head and gigantic crab pincers pointing my way.

After 'lunch' we went to watch this iNonesian folk"dance".

I thought it was just gonna be peole is masks dancing around, I have NEVER been more wrong in my liFe.

They didnt just dance, I experienced first hand how glass is munched like some beakfast bar and charcoals on fire chewed like meatballs.

I was astounded, amazed and well.. a little bit disgusted.
One of the dancers then came around and encouraged people to take a glass piece and feed the man who was eating the glass.

When it was my turn, i did nothing but stare at the man as though he had gone cuckoo, he just laughed. =_='

After that we went to the biggest Mall in the area( that's what was stated in the phamplet"

Had MACDONALDS( yes people, rEAL food) and headed back to the hotel.

The next few days were spent doing a little shopping, SmimmING, visting the Asian Arts museum and more shopping.

That's mainly it : )

But I honestly miss my friends, and for some reason I keep remembering them In Indonesia.
For example:

*Saw quite a number of cats--------> Reminded me of Val
*Saw a dancer with LOOONG finger nails----> reminded me of Ilma
*Saw a black pig---------> YanFen's keychain
*Cruise------> SOnika of course
*Ice-cream soda-----> VIVIEn,of course!!hehess

Cant wait to see you guys again!! Havent gone so long with chatting with at least one of you!

But as soon as I came back, heard some grave news, or yes, teRribLe, Guzheng postponed to Wednesday : ))))))))

Crazy CrazY craZYYYY*****

2006-11-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

Today was so COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
But..
Abit tooo wet for my own good.
We went to Mediacorp, for the promo shoot.
Given red polo shirst to wear, lets just say, it wld have been better if it was smaller.

THen we had our make-up done : D
and then filming, questionare, waiting, filming ANDDDD DANCINGGG
OMG,im SOOOO not gonna talk about it.
But PLAeSEE people, Dont laugh when you see it ok? PLAeseeee

Ok, going to IndoneSia tmorrow!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Taking a ferry, cant wait to tell you the truth, quite excited.
Bags packed, yups, hehess

Oh yeah!!
EMbarressed myself today, like OmG.

We were like so FREE, that we decided to play TRUTH OR DARE.
Our dEAR mS.VIcky took the iNtIatIVE to spin the bottle, and guess what, the piggies asked me a most idiotic question!!
sigh

Please you guys, its not true anymore OK
Stop bringing it up please!!!!!!!!!
Ok see you guys this saturday!!

P.S:: MIss U IL!!

* I'm a CraZy fanatic, DeaL with It***

2006-11-26T11:40:00.000+08:00

*ScreAmS*
Are theses Pictures FanTastIC, or are these pictures FANTASTIC!!!!

I was simply surfing through the internet yesteday, dead-bored, when i realised that because of the exams I had not visited the most AWseOme website, in the planet, www.mugglenet.com

So I visited the website and practically jumped out of my chair.
The website had been re-decorated and looked nothing short of TERRIFIC!!!!!

People, you just havEE to Go there!!~~
Thrust me, you will DEFINITELY not REGRET!!!!!!!

AND, to top it all OFF, there was this entiRE section dedicated to every harry Potter picture and drawing available!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU MUGGLENT!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh and!!!!.....the traILER IS oUT!!!!!!!!!
The trailer for HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF THE PHOINEX IS OUT!!!!!!!!
*ScreAms!*

For a preview for the most BRILLIANT movie for 2007, please go to mugglenet.com.
I aSSURE you, you'll be BlowN away :)))))

Harry POTTER RULZZZ PEOPLE!!!!!!!!
I love you J.K Rowling!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg, omG, oMG, OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

****Kids+ playground=innocent fun?Think again(its crAZY!)

2006-11-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

I went to the playground today.
My sister had been begging me to bring her there to play for about two weeks now.
I finally gave in and brought her down.

One might look down from one's flat and see little children playing in the playground and think, "They look so free,they don't have a deadline to meet or any sort of stress to try and manage. All TheY have to do is play.Talk about Lucky!"

Well, I dont know about you, but I sure use to think that.
But,after going to the playground today, I feel completely foolish for being so naive.

Its not all innocent fun and games.
If you take a moment and simply sit there and watch this adorable five and six year olds play and if you listhen to their conversations, you might just recieve a little shock.

" Hey boy, you know that boy there, he said he wants to fight with you. You better go show him."

This was what a little boy(probably six years of age) told an even younger boy.

I watched as they both walked side-by-side(honestly even gangsters would admire the determined look on their faces and they way strut toward the boy"who wants to fight wth them").

From what I got about this boy who wanted"to fight with them", he was simply minding his own business and playing on his own. I doubt he had even exchanged two words with them.

I was taken aback by their conversation and could not make myself do anything as the two boys approached the boy.

But this other girl, about 12-years i think, took the intiative and warned them that the boy they were planning to FiGhT with, had his father siting just a few feet away.

So they stopped and went back playing.

What I was doing? Just standing there, speechless and feeling abit numb.

Sigh

The parents of this lIttLE boys were probably busy with work and their siblings might not have been great influenece either.

Its horrible really...
It's sad that children so young have this image that they are big mafias or something.

If you think that im over reacting, I feel sorry for you.
If you had seen first hand the expressions on this little kids faces, you would feel just as sad as I do now.

I really have nothing else to say, or just cant decide what to say right now.
I really want to help them..but at the same time I want to help the people who imfluenced them.

But I cant..no matter how hard I try.
Not alone anyway...

If you see the seriousness of what I'm trying to tell you, then please do your bit and help our society, help our children, help ourselves, we are still kids too afterall.

Make the right choices please, and think twice of any action you are about to make, especially infront of any young child.

They don't need to make the same mistake you did.
It's just not fair for them, Its just not..

I dont want to think what this little boys might just grow up to become..

GuZhEng, GuZhenG and GUZHENG :))Crazy? Nah*

2006-11-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

BannERs
PreSentations
ScRipt
EmcEE TraIninG

All this has to be done befoRe the seC One Orientation.
Don't take me worng, I'm not complianing or anything, This is actually really fun.

I love sec One orientations :)
All the lying, faking and more lies just to bring all those sec on...errr nvm

Anyways, this isnt the only things on my To Do List.

There's Chemistry and Physics homework calling my name...

"Yo Lazy Pig! what on Earth are u waiting for, An invitation?! Get ur butt down and start doing me!!! Or just live with the guilt, MUHAHAHAHAHAHa"

Sigh, Kill me

0h Yes! and the magazine has to be edited to!
Yay me!!!

At least I get to go to BAtaM this coming Week!!!!
YaHooOOO

Hehess

I dont wana do this anymore...
I dont wana know the reason why..
OmGG i loVE this Song!
Go Rihanna!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SwEET hEART!!!!!

2006-11-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

!!!!!!!HaPpY BiRthDaY SaAdIqA!!!!!!!!

You are finally TEN hun, Congratulations!!
Its not everyday a young girl turns ten, now is it?
Wow...you ARE growing up
HEHEhehesss

Well, do well in your studies, I have coMPleTe confidence you would do Terrificly in the years to come : )

But make sure I hear no NonSenSe of bfs huh!

Hehehes

Ok, I just heard HorRiblE news that we have more HomeWork, terrif or What?

sigh, nvm, at least there's about forty more days before school starts.

We went for Julia Gabriels yesterday, it was honestly a great laugh, we had so much fun, except my tongue feels kinda lumpy and twisted afetr all the tongue twisters.

What's worst was the practice debate. I wasn't even allowed to LooK at my speech!

But somehow, it turned out alright, I suppose, hehehes.

Oh yeah, PoOr Val!

I hope she's alright.

Don't be traumatised hun, you know how she is.

But if Val was traumatised, you would never have guessed.

Honestly, my ribs feel like cracking after what she said, LOLs

You go girl

Sonika was nothing short of MeSmeRisEd at the (you guessed it) TOM CrUisE framed picture that unfortunately had to be hung there.

lols, anyways after having to practically tear her eyes away from the poster, we went to have lunch.

After which, we did a little bit of shopping, met Celestyn's Mum and Brother, then Sonika and I went home.

You would burst out laughing and probaly be shocked at what we talked about in the train but never mind, hehes

Thanks again for the funding Sonika ;)

hehehess

Val, BrowNie, and A black Dog,(they make a crazy trio)

2006-11-17T12:30:00.000+08:00

LOL

Our poor valerie had a friendly visit by a black dog.
It sniffed her as a welcome gesture...

Val screamed into the phone in which Sonika was on the other line as a reply.

But of cuz the other animals were not gonna let the doggy have val all to itself.

After the meeting with Mr. David, brownie, our school cat scared terrified Val all the way to the carpark.

For a full encounter with the black Dog, please read val's blog : )

Oh Yeah!

HapPy BiRthDay SonIka : )
Sorry to hear Tommy Cruisey is getting married to you-know-who today.
Try to pull it together and wipe those tears away, its your birthday afterall .

I will be going to visit my grandmother later.
I'm not sure why I just wrote this in my blog, but felling abit nervous about this visit...
Nvm]

Last night, before drifting off to lala land, had a chat with a JokeR.
The person suits this name extremely well.
(Fine, U got me Happy?) heheess

Well, ive decided not to touch my homework, revision or anyThing, till next month or something.

Its the holidays for God's Sake

And IL sorry i disturbed and annoyed u so much that u needed to get him to tell me that.

The GiRlS in MoTion(they Are As CraZy as Can Be)

2006-11-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

Today Val, Fen, Sonika, Meiqi, Celestyn and I went to Singapore Poly for this Timezone competition thing.

We met at White Sands and had lunch at this Thai Restaurant.
Sonika, Fen and Val had to be careful what they ordered for they could not eat beef.

What's worse, Sonika had A terrible Sore-Throat and she sounded downright sexy LOL

Anyways, she could not take anything spicy.
So after ordering we started to eat, Fen was abit late though.
While eating Val and I were discussing how fab it was to finally be able to attend Guzheng once more tomorrow( Right Val?)
Afterwhich, we took the maxicab ane drove all the way to S'pore Poly.
The ride was nothing short of hilarious.

The camp girls were singing AND dancing their camp songs and I was laughing(tears in eyes and all)

Sonika had her own little twist, a sort of BollY wooD twist(pretended that u were dancing with Hirthik Right Girl?) But honestly ive never seen herlaugh and smile and having fun so much.

The camp definitely did her good.

Yan Fen Turned out to be a fab rapper(of course we found that out after the Arena audition) Val was nothing short of sweet and Our dear MeiQi simply could not stop giggling : ))

Ms. Tok was dancing to the beat( joKinG)
hehes

When we reached there we had a little trouble finding the atrium, a nice guy showed us the way.

THe six of us finished the 100 mcq questions abt general knowledge question in 1/2 an hour.(We will now preTenD that this was possible because we are geniuses)

The geniuses did not make it to the next round ;)

NevEr MinD
: )

In the ride back home, something traumatising and DownRighT Hilarious and a little bit scary thing happened to( ThreE gUsseS who)
ME
lolS

I fell....

In the cab...

near fEn'S butt....

Everyone laughed....

I cried....

Cuz it was so FunnY....

I couldnt take it....

So tears streamed down my face....

As i laughed non-Stop...

They took a pic while Sonika and Fen pulled me up...

In the pic....

I looked....

As though.....

I was POsSeSSed

LOLSSSSSSSSSS

(clears Throat)

We shall forget this ever happened

In the end, I had A great Time

lols,

but stomach still hurts from laughing

IlmA CRAzY PatAki, Her middle name TellS us Everything

2006-11-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

Well, I woke up today, as usual, by hearing my dearest Mother's melodious voice.
No, seriously, it was melodious.
For
she was in the office and took the intiative to try and wake me up with a phone call.
If My dear Mother had her way, I'd be dripping wet from head to toe, a bucket on my head.

My mother hates it when anyone, especially her two darling daughters are not out of bed before 9 am.

So, without a choice whatsoever, I dragged myself out of bed and went to take a bath.

I decided that since this was the hols, I was going to make FULL use of it and have FUN.

Hence, instead of eating the fruitcakes, ginger snaps, orange juice, oats, milk and wheat cereal my mother had so thoughtfully laid out for me, I grabbed a cup of chocalate milk and sausages(which I boiled myself, see mum, BOiled, hence, healthy) and started to read a book"Magyk".

After which, still in a wonderful mood, switched on the computer and decided to check my mail. Afterwhich I checked my friends updates on their blogs.

It was then that I came across a blog entry that made be nothing short of ectatsic.

The compliments and gracious comments my darling friend Ilma had so sweetly directed my way, practically made me feel like flying to her house and give her a big, THIGHT, BREATHLESS hug.

Honestly, Il, what can I ever do with a friend like you.
Infact, judging by the fact that you are nothing short of PRICELESS, the only thing i could do to repay your KINDNESS and ENCOURAGEment was to pray for you.

Oh Yes, every night I pray to Dear God, and ask him, WHAT did I dO to deseRve a wonDerfUl frienD like ILMA.

She honestly is nothing SHORT of an angel, or yEs, NOTHING short of an angel.

Infact half the time I wonder why her email add had the word DEvIL in it.
I mean, she is NothIng at all like a DevIl.
I mean , HoneStlY!

DeviL and Ilma are like World's apart, two Peas in DifFerEnT pods.
ExtremeLy alik..I mean UnliKe.
There isnt a SinGle bit of SimilArity between theM at All !

And Il, Of couRse i would read up on geograohy Just for you, i mean if we ever do get lost in a thiCk, DenSe forest filled with ferocious animals, the LAST thing I would want is for YOU to get lost

Oh Il, you really are the best,
NOTHING
But the best.

Well, as Ive thanked that doll of a girl, excuse me, for I despreately need to visit the toilet bowl.
I'm feeling rather nauseas.

Read It and WeeP Crazy

2006-11-12T13:38:00.001+08:00

Before It’s Too Late…

Stern and firm on the outside
But warm and loving in the inside.
That was our Mrs. Hyde

The loving side she hardly showed
For strict was what she was
But in her dedication it glowed
Thus for my success she was the cause

Graduation came and went.
Tears were wept
Separate ways we all went

Set backs, I met
Regrets I had
But hope I never gave up
For that was what our Mrs. Hyde taught

Promotions, there were many
Money there were plenty
But something was still missing
Mrs. Hyde I yearned to see.

Thank you I wanted to say to her
For here I would not be if it weren’t for her
But my work stood between my wish and me

Seasons changed
As the flower bloomed and blossomed
And the first snowflake fell
But still I had not met Mrs. Hyde

Then came a day
A most unfortunate day
I finally was able to visit her

But it was too late
For that very day,
A funeral was being held for her

The regret and disappointment I felt then
There simply are no words to describe
But please from this learn:

Life is like a candle in the wind
So seize the day
Before it’s too late.

This is DedicaTed to MR.Edwin Ong
He isnt Dead yet, but he is presently overseas.
He was the one who woke me up and made
me realise that I had a future to work for.
Thank You Sir, For all your encouragement and guidance.
Is she GoRgeOus or What?!

This is CRazY

2006-11-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

I was looking for quotes for my msn nick when i came across a quote by Alexis de Tocqueville .

I was shocked, mad and sad that anyone can think such a thing about Islam.

Its horrible how the name of Islam has been smeared because of some horrible people.

This is what he said...

I studied the Quran a great deal. I came away from that study with the conviction that by and large there have been few religions in the world as deadly to men as that of Muhammad. As far as I can see, it is the principal cause of the decadence so visible today in the Muslim world and, though less absurd than the polytheism of old, its social and political tendencies are in my opinion more to be feared, and I therefore regard it as a form of decadence rather than a form of progress in relation to paganism itself.

If this is what he means by reading the Quran a great Deal, I beg to differ.

This is like a debate, one has every right to voice out his or her opinion, but the facts MuSt be there.

I think its unfair how he Describes Islam, and rather narrow-minded as well.

But then again, im going to meet lots of people with such opinions in the future. THere simply isnt any point in arguing with them.

What I think me and My MuslIm friends should do is show people what Islam really is about.
This way they can make a more fair Judgement.

Let's Do It U gUys!

Mr. Gabriel, He's everything but crazy: D

2006-11-11T14:31:00.000+08:00

Debate meeting with Mr David Gabriel today!!
Talk about FuN fUn FUN!!
He seems like a really cool person, extremely confident of himself and downright funny!!
hehehes

He did not train us today, just told us what he was going to train us on and we scheduled, and scheduled, and scheduled!
hehes.
Fen , as usual, being an exTreMelY busy person, had to make sure our sessions with him were nOt in the morning.

Val, that little moNkEy (;p) overslept and i waited for her for nothing short of HALF AND HOUR, gave up, met Fen who was waiting for abt 40 mins and took the train to Orchard.

Met Ms. Vicky and Celestyn ( talk about BlacK and WhiTe) all three of us were wearing black and white.

After Meeting Mr. Gabriel, we went to grab a bite to it and zoomed home.
In the train, Fen was trying to save her phone and i was staring at her pet pig : )

Then after throwing a handful of paper on my lap, Fen left.
Thanks for that Fen

Oh Yeah!

Sonika, Hope You Get Well SoOn!!

It's AlL aBouT bEinG CraZy

2006-11-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

ToP TeN PeoPLe!!!!!!!!
YooHooo!!
Guess the undeRdoGs arent exactly as under as some think huh.
Hey you guys please dont think im not boasting or anything, but we rEallY worked hard. I mean we were even termed underdogs, we only finished our speeches the day before the audition and Mr' Anil bombarded us with rebuttals just hours before the audittion. Talk about Nerve-racKing!!

But We DID it!!!!!
Oh yeah Oh yeah!!

Thanks a zillion to you guys for being there and whooping : )

Okay I fiNaLLy did the links section : )

Well the hols have finally started!

we got back our results and ranks : )
Lets just say I'm Lovin' It
hehes

The Time line( or is it timezone??) challenge is coming up..
Val is bursting with excitment, hehes, I'm just like( lets give it a go for experience sake)
But I think its gonna be fun.
I must admit, it does sound rather interesting.

Well, suppose to go out with Vini, the Yogess' and Naz to watch the GruDge, But J. Yoges had to go to Malaysisa : )

So DecEmbeR it is

And Ilma and Farhanah, WHEN ARE WE GOING VISITING????
Come On, free Yourself girls!!!
: )

And Vivien thanks a zillion for that gorgeous charm bracelet!!!

The Last few CraZy DayZZ

2006-10-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

heya!!
Omg, SOO many things have happened in these past few days, i DoNt Know where To start.
hmmm..

well, firstly,

WE GOT IN!!!!!!!!!

yeaH!!!, we got through the auditions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YahOOOOO!!!
hehesssss, honestly, i had a FaB time ;)

yes YeS, I knOw, its only the first audition, and there's still another to go, but SO wHat? lols, we still got through!!!!!!

But YIKES, the second audition is the day after TOMorrOW, like, What are w gonna do??
I honestly, havent a clue, but I believe in my team, we are SO gonna do IT!!

and John, thanks A zillION for helping me memorise my prop speech the other time, honestly i havent a clue what i would have done if u hadnt helped me, so ThanKS( okay, i thanked u in my blog already, HappY NoW????!!! ;) )

Oh YeaHHH
one More Thing!!!

I officially STAte right here, right now, I LOVE LOYANG SECONDRY SCHOOL!!!

They showed HaRRy POttEr anD The SOCerOr's StonE,(!!!!!!!!!!)
while the teachers' were having some sort of a meeting.

AND, there was this TerrIF competion, in which one got to wear a WIZARD"S HAT and answer a HARRY POTTER question!
IT was AWsEoMEEEE!!!!
Cuz i went up to answer!! hehehees, honestly, that's a moment i will never forget...

okay, DRAmAtiC much? hehes

today was great as well, but....
a few uncomfortable scenerios, hope everything will be back to normal soon..come on u guys, lets quit it okay, if we are not gonna support one another and continue bickering on (both sides) its gonna be a real waste.
lets just have fun okies?

who am i kidding

Oh and Hari raya, was just wOnDerFul : )
I thought my mum's eyes was gonna Bulge out when she saw that ice cream stain on my "panjabi suit"(indian costume)
lols, viv, do me a favour and never try force feeding me apricot ice-cream AgaIN, lols

And Yes, as John has assumed, the brilliant, Smart, and Awseome debators( no, not sucking up) were mad at me for not turning up for the course.
but nvm, at least we got to spend another day together again u guys, but honestly, lets never sit at the back of the coach again, that was just HorrIblE!
hehees

okies, gonna play my NEW HARRY pOttEr and The GobleT oF FirE game!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahahahaa!

Everyone's acting CraZy!!!

2006-10-22T14:12:00.000+08:00

i went to tampiness ,library today with fen and Val, but Ms. Vicky wasn't there. When we called her, she suggested that we go to her HOuSe instead. And i was just like, Great....

I was wearing a Kurta( indian costume) because I had to folllow mum to vist John's mum and some other of her friends, how on earth was I suppose to go alll they way to HouGang???

So I didnt have a choice and had to split up with fen and val. They went to Ms. Vicky's house, and i went to meet my Mum.

Before that I went home, for it was still a little early and realised that Viv had left me a tag

Speaking of which, all three, Viv, Farzannah and Esp John have all been acting really strangely.
Its like they are all hiding this huge secret or something. Its sort of getting me abit worried for Viv is freaking out, John is speaking to me properly and Farzannah seems to be jumping woth excitment. Like What's Up u guys?

You know you can always tell me anything..what wrong?

CraZy Crazy CraZY!!

2006-10-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

Today the debate meeting was honestly the best ive ever attended. We had so much of fun!!!!
Pretended that a hanger was a kick scooter and skated all over the dance studio, chased Sonika all over the place, got my ShoEs stolen , took silly HilarIouS pictures(rigt sonika, hehehehes) and talked and laughed and talked and laughed some more. : )

BUt then we got hints about how we did for the exams and it dosen't sound very promising..
oh dear oh dear Oh Dear!!!!!!

nvm nvm, just gotta continue praying...HARD!!!!

oh yeah and another thing!
I just found ut that my childhood friend, who I happen to THRUST alot, thought WOULD NOT HIDE any secrets from me, is actually KEEping a secret from me.

I'm not gonna force him, and this is not a threat but u better spit it out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lols, i wont tease u, i wont nag u, i just wanna know.
I cant believe that U have a crush, I mean like u are the one who spent half the time Telling ME how relationships dont work out when we are young. okok, its not a relationship, but still, a crush?!

hehesssssssssssssssssssssss

okok, I'll just let him think abt what I said.

Till then, I better go get ready for school.
Wish me LUck for my resulTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
aaargh, I'm so scared!!!!

P.S: Viv! at least u tell me!

CrAzY FrIeNdShiPs paRt TwO

2006-10-17T17:07:00.000+08:00

OllA!!

Today was really FuN
We had our fiRst debate meeting after such a loooooong time, and I had a great time!
The way we started today, i could not be more confident that we might just do well for the auditions( WisH Us LuCk!!!)

Okays...
Time for my Friendship UpdatEs( lols)

1. Most closest friend to me in the whole WIde world( more like a sister to me than anything else)
-Need to spend MoRe time with her
-Help her in our Plan to make a diffrence in a certain someone's life
-And spend more time with her
-Did I mention spend more time with her?
-Thank her for AL@WAYS ALWAYS being there(as in seriously ALWAYS)

2.I consider her a very close friend
-NEED to renew her faith in Friendship(priority on my to do list)
-Need to understand her advice of me having changed and reflect upon myself
-Thank Her for pointing out that I have Changed
-And I need to ensure that I change again for the better

3.The friend that is ALWAYS there to lift my spirits and make me laugh(Also consider her a sister : ) )
-Tell her sorry a ZIllIon and One times for being the cause of a big babalu forming on her head at the age of six.
-Invite her to a slumber party and ensure everything goes right
-Thank her a Gazillion Times for always ALwaYS being there when I need Her

4.A great friend who is always joking and has an extrmely 'HeAltHY CrusH On Tom CrUiSe'
-Find out why she rejected my calls for like 15 times
-Stop calling her ...(well she knows what)

hehes, like you can see, my hands are full with things to do. Its gonna be tough, its gonna be hard.
BUT
Im so not gonna give up.
I slipped once but am so not going to do that again.
For the thing is, these girls are worth it : D
Wish me Luck!!!!!!

HappY CraZY B'daY JohN!!

2006-10-15T19:35:00.000+08:00

Before I start..

HapPy BiRthDay JohN!!

John has been one of my closest friends since we were practically in diapers.
Our mums had been best friends since like ever, and we are simply continuing the cycle. John has always been like a brother to me. Honestly, the number of times he has pulled me up when I have fallen is nothing short of countless.
Thank You so much John. i wish you all the best, honestly I do:)
Take Care!!

Today was nothing short of terrif.
Viv, Farzannah, Jenny and I surprised John With A birthday party, and bOy was He surPrIsed!(Viv i'll send you his SurPrised face later, hehes)
We had a brilliant time and boy did we talk!
Its been like forever since we saw each other, and though its only been a few hours since we said goodbye, i miss all four of them already.

But never mind we are meeting again this Tue(I think..)

Oh my God, results are on the way. honestly i have never fely so jittery!!! aaargh....im really quite nervous. Honestly, I hope I do well.
Thanks again for my calming my nerves Viv! (the orange juice u spilled on me was honestly 'cooling' lols)

The Arena auditions are on their way!!!
OMg Omg... i hope we get in...
But nvm, like John said, I'll just have fun and give it my best short. Cant wait to debate again though. Hope everything goes alright. But what i really cant wait is for the debate meetings!
I still remember how Sonika spilled(more like burst) Ice lemon tea all over her. But what I really admired about her was that she burst out laughing, instead of freaking out ,lolss

Omg!! I was suppose to finish my english log book..

See you guys!!

My FaiTh, Its everything but cRaZy

2006-10-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

The Only One

He's everywhere...

In my thoughts
In my dreams

Wherever I may me
He's right there beside me.

I cannot see him-
Nor can I touch him.

But I know he's always there
Always there to care

To watch over me
And to protect me

He's the only one
Who really knows me

Who sees my faults
And my flaws

Who sees right through me
Who believes in me and my capabilities

He makes me face
Challenges and Obstacles

He tests me-
But at the same time guides me

He may be invisible
But his presence is more than just visible

He is like a light
Always shining bright

Enlightening the path-
The right path

For me travel through
And prove

That my love for Him
Is eternal

For I thrust Him
And belief in Him

Just as He believes in me
And loves me

He is like the meaning of life-
The reason of life

He is God
He is Allah

When I was born I was given a muslim name.
As I grew up, I started hearing the words Islam and muslim, and Allah.
When I went to primary school, I was looked upon as an indian, with hinduisium being my religion.
No one seemed to believe(my classmates and schoolmates that is) that I was a muslim, judging by the fact that I took Tamil and not Malay.
I was not really affected by this then.

To me, My parents were muslims, so that made me one. End of story, the end.
Praying and truly believeing in this God my parents loved and lived for meant (as disheartening as it is for me to say) nothing to me.

I did not try nor did I bother to find out more about Him.

But something happened to me, that really, Really changed my perspective of liFe and Of The ExsIstence Of this God.

It honestly affected me and woke me up.
All of a sudden, this unquenchible Thirst to Know more about This God, who I truly completely and totally believe was the one who saved me, was greater than ever.

And for once In my life, I could proudly say I was a muslim, , without feeling like a total fake.

Believe it or not(I swear to you) my life began to change draMatIcally.
He made So many of my dreams, my wishes and goals come true. He was and still is always there when I need him. He became my confidant and my advisor. I have never heard His voice, but His presence I felt and still feel everywhere.

He never gave up on me, even when I did not believe in His exsistence. Instead he lighted the right path for me to follow when I was lost in this huge jungle of life. He brought me to safety, He brought me to Him.

To me, and to every muslim out there, we exist beacuse of God, for God.
Living in a multi-cultural country, I know many Of my non-muslim friends believe in God as well. Sure not the God I believe in, but whatever it Is, Its God. We all believe He is there to guide us, to support and encourage us. This believe is what bonds humans of all races and religions and different backgrounds together. I think this is really special and we should not ruin it by fighting because we have diffrent beliefs.

Crazy Friendships

2006-10-12T16:44:00.000+08:00

The concepts of mathematics are dead, but it numbers are always alive. This was what my tution teacher Rui ting told me before My mathematics exams.

And boy was she right. I thought i knew my concepts but both The A maths and Emaths paper definitely were not the easiest papers i sat for. What's worse is tha Mr. Han said that more than HalF the class fAilEd...mIseraBlY.

Weeeeee...

Friendship is a pricless gift that cannot be bought or sold,for its value is far greater than a mountain made of Gold, my mother told me this once.

I like the way she said it cannot be bought or sold.

Friendship is like a very intricate design with complicated patterns but each thread is very important to make the design beautiful. Every thread is needed. The threads come in diffrent lengths and colours and as plain as they may seem alone, when sewn together with the other threads, their beauty is enhanced.

Its the same with friendship.
Sure its complicated, and sometimes you wish you were not tied to one, but thrust me when you look back, you would realise why you stayed in a friendship so long.

It really is worth it. I have learnt that, I hope you guys out there do as well.

Dont give up on friendship, one day you would realise its pricelessness( is there such a word? lols)

CrAzY Me

2006-10-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

Olla!!

Someone once told me that saying sorry is pathetic, like you are begging someone for forgiveness. Well, I Just have one thing to say, thats RubBish.

I say sorry to a person, because the person is WorTh it, and I do not want our friendship to be ruined because of something less worth it than our friendship.

But then I realised that if the person can say such a thing, than maybe the person isnt worth it.

But the thing is, the person was worth it, thAt's why i bothered saying sorry in the first place.

But what the person said really got to me.

Everyone looses it, gets stressed, speaks rubbish, and has regrets.
Yesyerday, I experienced this sudden wave of moodiness.
and i did all of the above.

Reason?
Well, this person called me called me a hypocrite, it was about a month ago, but ive never been called one before, and it really woke me up...

I never had the impression that i was a hypocrite, but for someone to go to the extend of calling me that, i must have hurt that person, quite badly.

Weird thing is, I havent a clue what gave that person the idea that i was..
But the person accidentally spilled a clue, something about competition

I didnt tell the person that, so the person ObViouSly heard it from someone else, and the person believed it.
That's what really gave me a blow...

Yesterday, like i was saying, i was in a mood that made me feel i was a HorRibLe, terrIble friend.

Four people came to my aid.
Four angels.
They didnt say that i was pathetic in saying sorry, some even thought there was no reason to.

These four loved me for who I was.
What they said, emailed and tagged me made me cry.
They are the ones that I would loose everything for no matter what.

Cuz they really deserve and earned the word friend.
I love you guys..so much

Thank YoU.. for being there and appreciating me for who i am.

*My Crazy Day***

2006-09-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

Heya:)!!

Today was quite along and tiring day...
Thankfully I found my Ionic Equations paper hehes.
School was fine, nothing big or major happened.
After our chem tutorial I had about two hours of free time befor Prefect's meeting so I thought I'd visit the library.

Half-way while trying to stuff my bag into the locker, I met Mr. Im-here-to-help. The first thing he told me was whether i had told eVerYoNe about what he told me.

Hehes. I replied that, No, i havent told EverYonE, just the people I know. He seemed fine with the answer and when to look for Maple Pheonix.

After that we had our little investigere, got a new badge and was moved by Mr' Poon's speech to take initiative and let our existence be known and to not abuse our power as Prefects.

Finished up my Physics homework.

Oh Yeah, and I almost Forgot to tell you the brilliant news I recieved today:D
SilLy Me!!

The exams have been brought forWaRd!!!!
Hallelujah!!!!
Am I Lucky or what?!

I mean it wasnt enough we had less then three weeks right after the hols before it was our exams but the staff was nice enough to take the initiative to bring the exams forward.

They probably thought that if they did not do so, the extra time would KiLL us.

Sweet of them or what?

And pure Geog Test is in the week the exams starts itself!
YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Mum I lOVE you for giving birth to me into such a merciful world.

Phsycologist: Dont worry hun, I'll change your prescription. Perhaps its about time you took something stronger.

Shahnaz: Dont be ridiculous. I doubt i even need medication anymore. I mean Come On!

*My Crazy idea****

2006-09-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

Heya!!

Well, Mr Im-here-to-help came online today. He gave me all sorts of info, bothered translating and even showed me a video.
All the while, i was just like.."woa..."

I was amazed, dumb-founded, and abit nervous, and well amazed.

I'm just curious as to why this person he was telling me about is not that well known...

I mean I have never heard of him. But like they say, what you know is only a handful, what you dont is larger than the universe.
Cant Deny that!

Crazy Cat-Lover and I even did some resarch in the library.
Lols, it wasnt much of a help, judging by the fact that EvErYthiNg was in MalAy. hehes

But Mr. Im -here-to help, seems to be well...... ready To HelP.

Shools' tomorrow. I lost my IONIC equations paper!!!
Sobs, nvm, ill just run to Ms. Lui in the morning explain everything to her, get a new paper, finish doing it by recess, and hand it up during Chemistry.

Wish me Luck!!
Oh and Jen, please stop asking me who is the Harry person, i honestly HAvenT a clue. And nO, im not sure what gender the person happens to be, and no im not lying. And nO, i havent a CluE whether the person is cute or not. So please stop calling me every five minutes and asking okay? My mum's getting abit annoyed : ) hehes.

Take care Girl,

Our Crazy idea

2006-09-17T17:33:00.000+08:00

Heya!

Crazy Cat-lover and I went to this website that was introduced to Crazy Cat-lover by Mr. Im-here-to-help. We explored it and found out quite a number of interesting stuff. Especially the Photo gallery. Some of the pics were just awseome.

There was even this cool feature that contained quotes that we are both using at the moment.

But what i found most interesting was this history section.

Anyways, Mr. Im-here-to-help seems quite keen in being tour-guide. I guess Crazy Cat-lover just has to fill me in :)

***My Crazy ILma *

2006-09-16T19:38:00.000+08:00

Heya!!!!

Today was just fab!
I had a FaNtAsTic Time with dearest Ilma, and my Lil' sis.
We just went to the library but we talked alot as well an I realised that I really REALLY missed Il!
Sigh, but never mind.
Ilma is studying really hard and I know that she's gonna have a really bright future.
As long as she's happy, I am : D
Luv You Il!!!

Before I went though, I was listhening to Hilary's Come Clean, and for some reason, I had this huge urge to write this...
Its dedicated all my friends, Ilma, Viv, Farhanah, Farzannah, Yoges, Vinitha, Onika Cruisey, Fen, Val, simin and everyone else who has helped me grow and be what I am today.
You guys make up a huge part of my Crazy world, and I would never ever trade you for anything EVER : )

I hope you guys will be able to relate to this, for you guys inspired me : D

Not a girl,
Not yet a woman

A pure pearl
In a vast ocean

Trying to find her way-
Her goal quite faraway

Dreams
She has many

Hopes
She has plenty

Through patience,
And graciousness

Love,
and kindness

She'll find her way-
Touching hearts along the way

Eager she might be to grow
But she should go with the flow

And enjoy,these years
For as long as she can

Before she is banned

From the likes of childhood,
And forced into adulthood

For then, she would no longer be
A white dove flying free

But a caged bird,
Bombarded with responsibilities

But at the same time,
She would have reached maturity

And be blessed with priceless knowledge
And inspiring experiences

But for now,
Let her explore
And find out how

Through her own special way....

The right path

To reach womanhood
And leave behind childhood...

Not to worry though...

THere is still time
For her to find herself

To learn from her mistakes
and mould into a beautiful woman

For the thing is,
She's no more a girl

And No,
Not yet a woman

There's a piece of each of you in here.
You are all special in you own way
Do not let anyone convince you otherwise

And remember ,
If you need me I'll be here..
Always : )

2006-09-13T19:36:00.000+08:00

Heya!

Sorry about there not being any new posts for quite some time.
School started and though its only been three days, Many things have happened. But before that I have something VERY VERY IMPORTANT TO DO....

Ilma, I'm horribly, terribly Extremely sorry that i KEep, REApEtedLy postponing our meetings. I feel like an ungrateful, terrible person.
Im really really sorry. Its nothing short of unfair that you BOther to make time for me, but i dont. Its not like I do not want to(of cuz NOT)
Its just that my parents are abit strict and you know about my Dearest garndmother. Im so sorry Ilma, I really hope you'll find it in that BIG, RED, GENEROUS, BEAUTIFUL heart of yours to forgive me.

Farhanah, my APPolOgiES to you as well!!!!
Im so sorry ive been so very FicKle!!!
Sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well back to my CrAzy Life.
We have been getting our results back.
Hence, im now in a frenzy of happiness, excitment, disapointment and just plain anxious.

I got my chemistry resluts today and am hOrrIblY disappointed.
I KnOW I could have done So much better.
I put in alot of effort in that subject, and what's worst is that its one of my most FavOriTe subjects!!!
sigh...
But never mind, at least i passed and its not like its the end of the world..
At least I have my A maths to cheer me up!!!!!

I dont mean to boast or anything(right.....) but i did PrEttY well!!!
It really was quite unexpected. Weeeeeee

Pure Geog was done quite well as well( am I starting to sound like an old proud walrus??)

English was quite well done as well
( Okay now Im starting to sound like an old proud walrus with a bowler hat that looks like its been through a tonado but I still think its gorgeous and walking with my head held high)

Maths not brilliant, cld have done better, not bad though...

mmm what else??
I dont thing there's anything else but I'll keep you posted.

Okies now for something abit more serious.
This person i happen to know(who was abit of a mentor once) but got into an argument with and am not speaking to presently, might be in the process of doing something horribly wrong and will not at all help the person
No the person isnt going to kill anyone...or steal or cheat or do drugs...
Its something else that might hurt the person and the person dosent even know it

I cant go to the person upfront and talk to the prson and share with the preson my worries cuz the person wld just flare up..

But i will help the person anyway...somehow...
Whatever it is Ilma is with me, and so is Farhanah.

Im sure we three musketeers will be able to succeed : )

And Farzannah and Vivien, thank YOU So Much for helping me do research about what the person is believing in.
You guys are the best!!
And THANK YOU for that GORGEOUS, HUGE teddy BEAR!!!!!!!!!

I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Miss You ILma, Viv and Farzannah and John Of cuz!!
Lolssss
Cya soon!!!
Hopefully....

*Crazy Teenagers?

2006-09-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

Heya : )

I was reading a few other blogs and i realised that many adults seem to have this idea that teenagers have frequent MAJOR mood swings and do not have faith in practically Anything.

I honestly, havent a clue where they got this idea from, but i beg to differ.
I find it rather unfair that they classify all teenagers as Lazy and Aimless just because of some rotten fruits.

Their OPTIMISTIC opinion of teenagers inspired me to write this.
Please do not get the wrong idea that im suffering from deppression, cuz i'm Not

I once had a good life
A free life

I didnt have a care in the world
The world cared for me

Wrong and right
were as clear as black and white

Troubles there were none
My life was as bright as the sun

But then things began to change
My life began to fade

Is wrong-Right or Wrong
Is right-Wrong or Right?

Everything is becoming a blur
Nothing is quite clear

Deppressed and confused
I dont know what to do

he world that once cared for me,
Is now turning against me

No one cares
No one shares
No One's there...

I understand when adults say that at this period ,we teenagers are abit confused. We might have gotten off the right path a few times and made mistakes, for we are not perfect.

But the thing is...Who is?

We are trying our best to prepare and defend ourselves from the Harsh world we will one day enter, That's waiting for us, And the same time, learning to make a diffrence in the lives of the people around us.

We appreciate your want to guide us, and understand that you only have our best interest at heart, but please encourage us as we learn to grow and mature, and do not undermine us or our efforts.

I find myself very fortunate that I have parents who understand this and have always ALwaYs supported and encouraged me to achieve and realise my fullest potential.
I know you guys are no less fortunate, read between the lines of your parents actions, and you will see what I mean.

As for the other adults, who seem to be lacking faith in our abilities, lets prove to them that we really are the future of tomorrow, and WILL make it a bright one : )

C_a_Z_ Guzheng

2006-09-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

SHAHNAZ: Omg Guess what?!!!!!! I ve got FANTASTIC news!!!!!!!
Oh Yes! The best news of all the best news ive recieved this LONG Holidays!!!
I have Guzheng Practice This Fri, oh no, this is NOT the BRILLIANT news...No, No
The AMAzInglY DelIGHTfuL News is that Guzheng would be on From NINE a.m till Four-thirty p.m. That's Right! ONLY SEVEN AND A HALF hours!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isnt that awseome?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PHSYCOLOGIST: You forgot to take your medication this morning, now didnt you?

SHAHNAZ: WHAT ever gave you THAT idea?

Thats all I'm saying.
Yups, that's all i can manage to say after hearing this news that's like music to my ears.

I lUv My carzy lIfe, yups cant get enough of it!

*The CRAZY Results!!!***********

2006-09-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

HEya;)

The hols are coming along fine, honestly ive never had SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee There is like SO much of things to do!!!!!
I feel so freeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
(mY phsycologist said being optimistic about boredom is good for me)

You get the msg...

So since i has SO much of free time in my hand, i decided to think of more "optimistic" topics..
LIKe What?
Well, nothing much..just about..

RESULTS!!!
I got So inspired that I wrote something..
Hope it dosent deppress you too much...

Exams are OVER
Freedom, we want to savour

But we still have to worry-
For the exams RESULTS will be here in a hurry!

Are we going to fail or pass?

All this FUSS
Just for thos

Annoying!
Terrifying!
Blood-Sucking!

RESULTS

Why?
Sigh...

Cuz' our future they'll affect-
And we want our lives to be perfect...

Top few I wanna be-
But do i have the ability?

Gosh, I haven't a clue!
All this, " Being the best business is making me Blue!"

Ive done my best,
Now all I can do is pray..
And hope everything will be okay...

I'm sure you guys share my pain

Lols, okay okay enough Mourning...
I promise to write about more happier things soon enough

My Crazy Friends**(Can't Get Enough Of them Though;>)

2006-09-05T20:08:00.000+08:00

Friend. A simple word, with a simple meaning. But being one, staying one and keeping one is as complex as creating a spider web. That's why the word Friends are somtimes split into diffrent categories. There's Best Friends Forever, Best Friend, Close Friend, and just Friend. There are of course so many more, but im sure you get the idea.

There is this quote.. Unfortunately I forgot who it was from, but it goes something like this...
" A true friend is one who points out your mistake to you, however, he might not seem a very good friend after that." True isnt it? Try and think of the times you wanted to tell your friend something, a bad habit maybe, so that he or she would not embarrass him or herself but hesistated because you did not want your friendship to be affected. The quote Categorises the word friend as " true" For only a true friend would risk friendship from preventing his or her friend from embarrasing his or herself. Ironic but extremely true.

Inspired i wrote a teeny something, just 4 kicks...

I meet new people everyday

As my friends some stay,
Others just fade away

But keeping friends isnt easy
For life is so very busy.

I have friends of all sorts.

Friends from private schools,
Friends from public schools
And even friends from foreign schools

But for some reason,
My bond with them is breaking,
They seem to be fading

Sometimes, they are the cause..

Other times its me,
However, I can't see
How that can be

For you see,
I haven't changed,
They're changing me

Exams arent stressing me,
But their stress they're rubbing off on me.

As hard as i try,
I cant stop the changes,
For there are too many grudges.

Thus, at times,
We Separate,
But, I guess that's just fate.

I wont give up though,
I'll give it another go.

Afterall,
Miracles happen Everyday,
Or at least-
That's what they say..

Has a friend ever told u ur changing? and as the poem goes, have u ever felt, u are not, n u think they are just sprouting nonsense? I Have, but then i realised there must be a reason why one wld say that, especially when he or she was ur friend.
So look inside u, n be prepared 4 u might just understand and realise what ur friend was trying to tell you ; )
Good Luck!

What's so Crazy about getting a jOB?**

2006-09-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

I went out with my friend Lil Yogi yesterday, and she told me she was going to get a job just for the holidays. I don't know why but I was shocked when she said that. But then later I realised that many of my other schoolmates were also having part-time jobs .
And I'm Just like"Woa...."
It takes alot of determination and hardwork to juggle both school work n a job together.

When I asked them why, they said becuz the hols are boring, or that one could always do with extra cash. I see their reason, but I just cant see myself working now. Why?
There are three reasons:
1. my mother is abit strict
2.I think i laready have quite a number of things in my hand
3. I dont think Im ready

Jobs, are a BIG resposibility. When one gets a job, he or she has made a big commitment and must stand by it. Sure, who would not be happy getting a salary, but is one ready for this huge reponsibility? I doubt I am, for now I'll just concentrate on my studies, but for those of u guys who are succesfully juggling both your jobs and school, I totally admire you. Good Luck!!!

The Crazy Family Trip

2006-09-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Heya: )

My parents decided since one week is too short to go anywhere, we'll just (as a family-which includes, Mum, Dad N CRAZY lil sis(luv her)) go to JB for a day. For "family bonding" or something like that. Anyways, i remember when it was our mid-term exams n the weekend before our MAJOR Geography paper, i went to JB. My frens thought i was crazy( don't exactly blame them) and i remember Onika Cruisey( Oink Oink! the name is abit ironic judging by the fact that she looks everything like but a pig, but hopefully she'd get the msg and START eating ;)) telling Macaroni Crazy Fenny( is dat too long? But It TOTALLY suits her) that I went that to watch a movie, maybe becuz its cheaper. LOLSSSSSSSS
I crack up everytime i remember that.

Lolsss, Brilliant theory Onika, lolsss, but honestly i so dont blame u for coming up with that theory, i mean i DID go to the movies, but LOLS No, Not becuz its cheaper, it was sort of a last minute thing. After my mother did her shopping, we though we would watch a movie. Hehesss

But back to the present, we are just going to JB for a little shopping, but if i do watch a movie there...then hehess..lets just say Onika's theory gave me an idea ; )

*The Crazy EXAMS n the Crazy RESULTS**

2006-09-03T21:46:00.001+08:00

Heya : )
The Long awaited hols are FINALLY here. Honestly, im Nothing short of exhausted. School's fun and everything, but, nothing beats the holidays! I've already heard many complaining the hols are way too boring and they cant WAIT to go back to school...(And i'm like...Okay.......what Planet are u from?) hehes, okay that was abit mean, i mean i understand how they fell, but still its the HOLIDAYS. once school starts you'd be begging for the hols to start once more. Like they say, " The grass always SEEMS greener on the other side."

B4 the hols, it was our exams right? So i wrote a little something. It's nothing much but i'll just post it anyways, for fun. : )

Exams are coming
And I'm Stressing

I see it spreading
That Pesky nervous feeling

One by one,
As though shot by a gun,
My classmates are falling.

Some are screaming,
Others are weeping.

The tension is rising-
As many more are regretting
For not studying

They are running and running-
From that guilty feeling
That is growing and growing

But they cant ignore it
And are now facing it

Sure, It waon't be easy
But i KNOW they wont give up so easily

Thus Im certain,
We all will pull through...

Good Luck You Guys!

+~My Crazy Idea+~

2006-08-31T18:09:00.000+08:00

Heya,
this is my first blog entry, so im going to make it as interesting as possible.
I have this idea. Writing a blog, is something like a book where you write most of the things, or at least the main events of a day, that had a major impact(or not) on you. So, I was thinking that, in each entry, when I write about someone, I will not use his or her real name, but create a new nickname for the person. No, this is not because i'm a coward, because my friends would definitely be able to figure out who i'm talking about becuz these names will be very similar to the person's charcteristic. So why not just use the real name? Becuz its fun! Duh! hehes. The names will of course not be offensive, but if one is majorly traumatised by any of the nicknames, or nothing short of want to punch me, please do feedback to me :)
This blog, is dedicated to my Crazy life, filled with my Crazy friends, Crazy family, Crazy school, and well everything that's Crazy in my life. But i promise u, i enjoy EVERY minute of it :)

My Crazy World

Time Will Heal The Pain

That's just how it is...

I feel FREEE

***Talk about TiPicAL***

***im totally tired***

oh oh oh

***already half-way through the hols***

!!!!!!!an amazing woman!!!!!!!!

Farhahnah's AWSEOME party!!

Wings and Nails just do NOT go together Dream maker!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

The War Times-the world's leading newspaper

Woa, she sure has a major sense of humor, never knew that!

world war TWO?

Its alright, it ok....

its coming!!!!!!!!!! its coming!!!!!!!!!!*SCREAMS*

my DARLING friends, love em' cany hate them no matter how hard i try : )))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!

Love u guys!!!

***We are CraZy Enough To beat Em'***

***Will you be CraZ...Brave enough to do it?***

***My cRaZY TrIP***

****Crazy CrazY craZYYYY*********

*** I'm a CraZy fanatic, DeaL with It*****

****Kids+ playground=innocent fun?Think again(its crAZY!)

****GuZhEng, GuZhenG and GUZHENG :))Crazy? Nah*****

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY SwEET hEART!!!!!***

***Val, BrowNie, and A black Dog,(they make a crazy trio)***

****The GiRlS in MoTion(they Are As CraZy as Can Be)****

****IlmA CRAzY PatAki, Her middle name TellS us Everything****

***Read It and WeeP Crazy***

*****This is CRazY*****

***Mr. Gabriel, He's everything but crazy: D***

****It's AlL aBouT bEinG CraZy****

***The Last few CraZy DayZZ***

***Everyone's acting CraZy!!!***

****CraZy Crazy CraZY!!****

****CrAzY FrIeNdShiPs paRt TwO****

***HappY CraZY B'daY JohN!!***

***My FaiTh, Its everything but cRaZy***

****Crazy Friendships****

***CrAzY Me***

*********My Crazy Day***********

***********My Crazy idea**************

************Our Crazy idea************

*************My Crazy ILma ***********

***********Crazy Teenagers?**********

***************C_a_Z_ Guzheng***************

*************The CRAZY Results!!!***********************

**********My Crazy Friends************(Can't Get Enough Of them Though;>)

********What's so Crazy about getting a jOB?**********

*****The Crazy Family Trip*****

*********The Crazy EXAMS n the Crazy RESULTS**********

~~+~~~****My Crazy Idea****~~+~~~